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Jun. 18th, 2010 | 12:29 pm

"What if god was one of us..."


"You are wonderful, beautiful, talented, creative, have a good heart, and it doesn't matter what anyone thinks.....you live your life amazingly! Haters are nothing more that hurt, hurters...sad, and they will NEVER have happiness in their hearts that way." -Kandee Johnson (MUA)

Okay, so we were suppose to go watch ToyStory 3, but things didnt work as plan... So maybe just KOu and I, taking Eileen to watch it...

Its been a tough Month... I can't wait to see my brother and Nyab next weekend! they are flying in from GA. Its been 5 years since the last time I've seen my brother and my nephew Logan!

Kia

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May. 15th, 2010 | 12:46 pm

I hope she gets it!! karma will get her! How can she be sooo fucken selfish when she was the one that cheated and gave up her one and only SON away just so she can have all the fame!... what kind of mother would do that! and then goes on talkin shiet about mother's day... that slut is gonna get it... I'm fucking glad you left my brother! he doesnt deserve a fucking slut like you!! and Raiden sure doesn't need a mother like you... too young to understand now... but when he grows up, he'll understand!!

I'll watch you... and I'll see how happy you live your life!!

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May. 11th, 2010 | 02:19 pm

I need to stop worrying about what people will think about me... Someone comes along and reads something i say about someone or something and judge me right off... I'm tired of that shiet... Really, I need to make myself matter!

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my way

May. 9th, 2010 | 12:01 am
mood: calmcalm

we travel too much to sac... He's thinking about moving back to sac, so we both could just work... but i dunno, i'm kinda having second thoughts about everything... And just thinking what my alternatives are... I dunno, i'm just really confuse, I do and I don't... idk there's so many things to it... but honestly, i'm not ready to be here in sac yet... I like the way my life is in chico... we can always have our own little private family time... i can do whatever I like... no one will complain about my kids... seeing his family every other weekend is a good thing.... i get a little bit of everything... i like it that way.

Anywase, i really tired of school! i think i'm gonna take a break from it for a while and just work... I haven't had a decent job since i had kids... gosh, that extra income would help alot. Today was my sister Ko's 21st bday... she is also pregnant, so i guess she can't really drink any mixed drinks until after she haves her baby... Tomorrow is my dad's birthday... and also Mother's day!! I painted a picture of my Mom in a lotus flower... I've always wanted to make her one becos she had been talking about having herself inside a flower, like ever since i was young... I haven't sent it yet... becos i still need a grade for it...

So we came to sac this weekend... since thursday. Lately bad things have been happening to me... gosh i feel like a bad luck charm! the other day, I almost got into a really bad car accident... I mean seriously, if there was other cars around me... i think I would have been dead or at the hospital... I mistakenly drove into the island bumps, thinking that it was the entry lane to make a left turn on the red light, instead it was the left turn to enter the parking lot! And there was no sign anywhere, so i got confuse and drove in and realize that it was the turning to enter the parking lot... I literally drove over to the oncoming traffic on the opposite side.. but there was no car around me... so thank GOD for that!! My car however, well my oil pan broke/crack... but i'm okay! and then i realize how precious life is...

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house hunting

Apr. 29th, 2010 | 05:47 pm

we've been looking for a new place, duplex or a small single house, 2 bed. RIght now we live upstairs in a nice apartment community... the only downfall is, we need more space for Eileen and Chamb to ride around in their bicycles and toy car... and really want a nice yard... planning to get Eileen a small puppy... she's been crazy about getting one... thats all she talks about. We'll go driving in the car and when she see's one, she be like "Awww... a puppy, so cute!"

We found a duplex today, that we really liked... but not so sure if we really want to make that move. Kou is considering about moving back to Sacramento... I tell him that I'm not really ready to make that move just yet. I have really liked living here, in this small town, everything seems so convenient for me. I don't have to wake up 2hrs early to get ready, and deal with traffic, don't want to make that 30mins to an hour commute. I feel like everything is here... school, work, shopping areas are 10 to 15 mins away... I like that.

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now...

Apr. 27th, 2010 | 09:33 am

Over the last past years, I have capture a lot about who I am and what I do. THings that have happened, pple around me and how they treat me has really brought out the best of me. I feel that I am a greater person today.. but every now and then I still make stupid decisions...

Anyway, I'm at work right now. I'm an esthetician, working part time at a tanning salon in northern cal...

Things have been great.

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Apr. 26th, 2010 | 12:05 pm

The last time I really wrote a blog in here was 5 years ago. I miss blogging/writing. I have a personal journal, but I don’t enjoy it as much as writing it online. It’s been 5 years. I come in here every now and then to capture a bit of me… to read me, how I was like, what kind of person I was. I almost thought about canceling this account forever… but someday I want my life to be published… to be known as a part of history.
I am 25, married with 2 children; a daughter and a son.
and that is all you can know right now... til we meet again.

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Writer's Block: Name your passion

Dec. 2nd, 2009 | 02:37 pm

Making people feel beautiful about theirselves.

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YSL Rouge Volupte

Oct. 25th, 2008 | 03:18 am

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The END

Jul. 22nd, 2005 | 11:47 am
mood: happyI'm smiling

My last entry...

Kou, I woke up this morning in tears... I dont know why... I just really need you here... I
wanna feel how it feels to be in your arms again... its been 2 weeks, that you've been gone... I miss you like crazy... I miss those late nights, you would come by and we would talk and talk... I miss all those crazy things we use to do... and laugh about it later... I've told you this many times... and I'll tell you again... You made it all possible for me... "You're the best thing thats ever happened to me..." I'm here... I'm right here waiting for you...

I look back into my life... A lot of me has changed... I've grown to accept myself for the changes that occured, some were bad, some were good... Sometimes I wish I can change myself... but I realize that I change myself only to be in the same place again... Yet there's not a single thing that I regret... I learn to love myself for the best and for the worst... I've been friends to those who backstabbed me, loved those who didnt care about me... trust those who have lied and betrayed me... and yet I still continue to... but I trust no others except for myself... or I could be wrong. Sometimes I wonder how I manage to do it all alone... finding my own faith and hope... finding my own strenght, finding my own inspiration... finding myself... And in the end... I'm standing right here... at the edge of the great unknown... for tomorrow is another day that'll change my life forever...

So my story ends here... dont question me why... "Life goes on..." thanks to those who have taken the time to read my thoughts, and those who still continue to... feel free to leave me your comments...

This is it... I'm done! Gone! Farewell!

A last glance at us....

I love you... with all my heart...

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